|House of Wax
||[May. 17th, 2005|12:57 am]
ooh la la
Really cheesy, terrible, movies can be fun sometimes. but really good ones are better.
Everybody around me is getting twitterpated. It's interesting... even i am.. i guess... to an extent... whatever. i'm not sure if i like him that much, but it's kind of cool cuz i'm not sure how much he really likes me. it's a mutual "uh... whatever" kind of feel. i wouldn't care if he found someone better for him than me... and i don't think he'd really care if i told him i found a boy who i like more than him. i'm beginning to see the point of dating someone when you're not really that "into" them... it's like practice for when you find somebody you do really like so that you're not all dumb once you do find someone you really do like. (it's kind of like using people, but, really, what else are people good for? it's impossible to even talk to somebody without using them.) i don't really like anyone though... and with those that i do, it just seems so difficult. i'm all about simplicity. it's probably because i have problems grappling with honesty in the emotional sense sometimes and it's much easier to be with someone who i don't really like that much because i don't care and therefore they don't care. it's easier to flirt with people i don't really like, emotionally, because i won't be offended if there's a chance of them turning me down... i would just be like "oh, whatever" and get over it instantaneously. i do know what i like in a person, and i do know people that satisfy aspects of that, and they may also see complimentary characteristics in myself, so maybe i should just stop being so dumb.